Wednesday, August 31, 2011

A Really Old Film Camera....

I've been trying really hard to understand my camera in manual mode and Chris has been a big help. We spend a lot of Sunday afternoons walking around playing with settings.  He bought a Canon AE-1 Program, which I refer to as -really old film camera.  It's been a cheap way for us to figure out shutter speed, aperture and ISO.  Each role is a big surprise and I love the feel of the pictures when we can actually get them to turn out.  Last weekend we developed the pictures he took at the Manti temple. 

December 29th feels really far away...

Monday, August 29, 2011

Calm Chris Part 1....

It's always blown my mind that someone could commit to marriage and not have a full fledged panic attack inside, or even commit at all.  I've always been a real freak about forever. In other words I'm marrying Chris not just for time but for eternity.  Divorce not an option.  Were talking forever here folks.  Coming to terms with such a big decision can be difficult.  However I've come to realize that the reason I was able to say yes when Chris knelt down on one knee is because he is calm.

I've always dated quite a bit.  I feel like I've had ample opportunities to find someone, it just wasn't there.  There have been times I've tried to force it and times when no matter how much I tried- I just couldn't fathom the idea of kissing the other person, let along marrying them.  Chris snuck up on me because he was my friend first.  Two years a go when we met if you would have told me I'd marry him- I would have laughed.  No, actually I would have called you an idiot.  Chris doesn't like me to talk about how much I didn't like him at first.  So for his benefit we will just say it took me awhile to warm up to the idea.  I had some pre-conceived notions I had to get over. I believe he being the last person I ever saw myself with is exactly what makes our story so perfect.

The thing is, I was in Cedar and he's always been in Provo.  Our first date wasn't until December of last year but before that he would send me the funniest things on FB.  Our first date and even after I didn't think it was going anywhere. He was in his thirties for crying out loud.  But here's where I think Chris got me.  Chris was different because no matter what a freak I was through the whole process.  I hate calling our story a process by the way.  Chris handled dating Danielle like a champ...I think it's his wise old age. (JK Babe).  There was a lot of this going on at first.

I like you.
I don't like you.
I hate the word boyfriend.
Were not dating.
Don't date other girls.
Who were you out with last night?
We can't hang out this weekend.
I can't wait to see you this weekend.
I wish I didn't like you so much.  

You get the point. I'd even make plans to hang out with him and then bail 10 minutes later. I won't write about the panic attack I had outside his house under a tree where I told him that we were just too different, from two different worlds and it was a waste of time.

His response was always - "okay whatever you decide, but I really like you"

He never once tried to make it more than it was. He never once sent me a relationship status change on FB until I sent him one a few days after we were engaged.  One time I had someone do that after a first date. Barf!  He didn't barge me with text messages or phone calls.  He let me be busy in Cedar and somehow our text messages turned into phone calls.  I started looking forward to every weekend home and all the sudden summer at the parentals wasn't the worst thing in the world.  It just happened.  Calmly.....

Friday, August 26, 2011

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year.....

I mean other than Christmas of course.  I'm not really into sports, but when it comes to the neph Hayden. I don't miss a game. He started varsity QB as a sophomore and I was worried sick the big kids would crush his lil guy guts.  It's a really good thing he's fast.  Now he's a senior .....
....and I still worry their going to crush him!
Good Luck Haydro!

No Way....

I wish someone was cool enough to make me this lunch. Maybe I'll ask Chris. I think were still in the phase he might actually try.....I'll let you know. 

Found Here

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Nut Cups & Nut Sacs....

I don't know who came up with the whole nut sac/nut cup trend for weddings.  I'm guessing the first bride who did it, did so just to be funny.  I think it's funny.  Who knew it would catch on like it did. A sack full of nuts-please tell me I'm not the only one who finds it ironic.  

So far I haven't been too picky on certain wedding aspects. However I will be picky on this- there will be no nut sacs or nut cups.  That's just way to many nuts in one night.   I hope you agree.

P.S. Sorry mom, that just had to be said.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

The Bureau Drawer.....

In the book The Best Christmas Pageant Ever....

"They didn’t have a bed in the barn, so Mary and Joseph had to use whatever there was. What would you do it you had a new baby and no bed to put the baby in?” “We put Gladys in the bureau drawer.”

It feels like Christmas getting this done. I don't think Chrysalis will fit though, and that's the only baby I got.

Bam! Don't you love the knobs.
I totally love the knobs.
 I totally hate the word knobs.

P.S. Not sure if this exactly classifies as a bureau drawer.  In my mind - close enough.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Wedding Shmedding....

For the next four months I will be three hours away from Chrysalis. Pronounced (Chrys-a-lis). Yup that's what I call em.  Just so you know the definition is like- mouth of a butterfly. I got worried because I thought it was some catholic religious symbol and I didn't want to go all offending people. So yeah. Chrysalis and I are real far a part for the next few months. Three hours away. Two and half if you don't tell your dad what time you leave and then just arrive.  Bam!  Chris and I have decided to be positive about being a part.  We have a lot to accomplish.  But last night talking over the phone just wasn't as good as the real deal.

However the last two days I managed to get my 62 page to do list, down to like one page. I am feeling like I can breath again.  I feel like I an tackle this masters degree, my two jobs and planning a wedding. Can't tackle my actual fiance though, because he's far away. 

So all I'm asking for is some suggestions.  Any cute wedding ideas you might want to notify me of.  Something you loved doing at your own wedding.  Websites I should look at.  Ideas or recommendations of people who actually know about weddings and think about them before they are engaged?  That would be awesome blossom!
I will thank you before hand.
Thank You!

See Chris Ride....

One day Chris rode a horse for the first time.
We actually put a saddle on this time.

My response, "We've got to get that boy some boots!"
My real response, "Let go of the horn. Yer not gonna fall off."

Monday, August 15, 2011

Neiner, Neiner, Neiner....

I like to play a game.  It's named- say whatever the other person says.  Chris hates this game. I mean literally hates this game.  I however think it's genius.  Here is an example from gmail chatt as to why the future husb might someday divorce me. 

chris:  that's what i say. oh i think they did
 me:  that's what I say. oh i think they did
 chris:  did you just send me the same thing?
 me:  did you just send me the same thing?
 chris:  oh don't play that joke...not in here
i like girls
 me:  oh don't play that joke...not in here
i like girls
 chris:  gross
 me:  gross
 chris:  i am we todd did... we todd did
 me:  huh?
 chris:  read out loud
 me:  were in a library!
 chris:  just do it....
 me:  OHHHHHHH the fact that you know that makes you retarded!
 people stopped sayin crap like that in Junior High!

The other day at dinner.  Chris started playing- say whatever Danielle says.  He was mimicking me all through dinner, not only copying my words but my hand motions.  So all the sudden I looked at him- and hit myself as hard as I could right where the sun doesn't shine.  Shut em right up.

P.S. I still think the game is genius. 

Thursday, August 11, 2011

So this is what it feels like.....

I've never been that great at change.  Okay I'm horrible at it.  This summer has been one big drastic change. One day I want to write how Chris and I started dating and how we ended up together because (A)- It still blows my mind. And (B)-I've never been really good at the ooey gooey love stuff.  I know I shocked a few people with the announcement.  Shocked might be an understatement. I didn't really tell anybody we were headed in that direction even though we were headed there like a fat kid heads for cake.  Of course the parentals knew but even my sibs were not expecting it so soon.  But that's another story entirely.  Truth is, this week has been intense.  So despite the overwhelming feeling that often occurs when I finally stop to breath. I'm truly grateful for everything that's played out. Here's some good, cute, proof of our courtship.

The highlights of late include Chris mom coming into town from New Hampshire. Chris is an absolute mommas boy and she lives on the other side of the country so spending time with her is precious. Two days later we got engaged, and even though you know it's coming. It hits you hard, like real hard. Like-"Oh this will be my husband" hard.  (It's a good hard though.)  Since we've been engaged I've officially thought about not one wedding thing.  I guess I will have to start planning at it some point.  Chris turned 32 on Tuesday! I have been working a lot, which is awesome. I'm grateful for the extra hours.  We found a place to live.  Chris is moving in tomorrow and I will be joining him in December.  Funny that we hadn't found a place until today because he was going to have to stay with the parentals for a week and we all know that's is weird. Other than that I was offered an opportunity that gave Chris and I a wake up call.  We actually thought we might be moving to Cedar long term.  We decided against it but not before a lot of prayers and a few good ulcers. 

In case you didn't want to read all this the only real thing I have to say is- The Lord Works in Mysterious Ways!

Sunday, August 7, 2011

So there I was....

 ...August 4th-camping. No really I was.  Here's the thing. Chris is always at work.  I like this about him but mostly I hate it because it's hard for him to get time off.  My family has had this four day camping trip planned for awhile.  So the plan was for me to go up the canyon with my family, while he worked. I was going to stay one night and then come back and hang out with his family/mom since she is in town from New Hampshire for the rest of the weekend.  A few hours before we left, Chris got off work. I guess his work was cutting hours and gave him the option to leave. In all my time dating him,this has never happened.  So there we were-camping.
We were doing lots of normal camping activities. Roping fake cows and playing checkers.  This is monumental because Chris kicked my trash and let's be honest I kick his trash at everything else. (He'll probably get me good for that.) So we documented it. Good job babe-you're good at checkers, really good. 

Meanwhile he keeps asking to sneak off to go on walks or go down to the lake.  This is really weird to me because (A)-it's like dark and (B)-we're not the sneak off and make out type.  Like we have actually never done that and I felt like he was acting like we were going to.  So finally I gave in.  We got in the car to head to the lake and my nieces wanted to come. I said-sure. Chris said - no.  So we drove down to the lake and walked around.  It was freezing.  I asked to leave.  So we got in the car and drove down further.  We found a little dam and walked across.  It was such a nice night really and I was actually enjoying this walk, less swamp, more stars.  Then he starts hugging me.  This is cool except I really wish I could tell you how un-like this we are.  I mean we hug, don't get me wrong. He just wasn't talking or anything.  So then all the sudden he gets down on one knee and popped the questions- Will you marry?  I totally thought he was joking, since he fake proposed to me at Brick Oven the other day.  I figured he couldn't have anything planned since he hadn't planned on coming with us until ten second before we left.  But he did and it was dang good I tell you-dang good.  So I say- YES!! And yadda yadda, we are officially going to be...Mr. & Mrs Bates.  A few things to note.

- He hadn't planned on purposing and work really did magically let him off.  
-All night he was toting around large amount of allergy medicine in his pockets.  He really does have allergies but I guess he didn't want me to notice the ring box.
- He put on sweats over his shorts when we got to camp - he was really worried I might see the ring box.

After we drove back to camp and got to tell everyone all at once.  This was really special because everyone could be there and I didn't have to choose who to call.  We also got awhile to be together and be engaged before telling everyone and posting it on Facebook and doing all that nonsense. The parentals and sisterville knew it was coming like a freight train but I think everyone else was generally surprised.  I mean they had to be because I was. In the end it turned out perf a lerf. It's funny when people say- when it's right, its right.  Because I've always been real skeptical, but that's a whole different post entirely.  There's a lot on my mind.  Turns out if you didn't think about planning your wedding in all your 24 years, it comes back to bite you in the butt-hard. One more thang we're getting married in the Manti Temple on December 29th.  Be there or be square!

P.S. If I would have known he was going to purpose I probs would have worn makeup.  Okay I for sure would have worn makeup.

Friday, August 5, 2011

I'm not french.....

....but I have a fiance.

P.S. I guess you could say it's pretty serious.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

He comes with a lot of questions....

I wish I remembered how to be funny and write again.  But I don't. So instead let your nosy mcnoserson questions be answered.

- How long have you been dating? 
Since December.  Except I actually didn't like him for awhile...our first date wasn't very good. Don't worry he aware of this. Plus it was rather sparse the first couple months since we were three hours apart. I have known him for almost two years though.

-Where did you meet? 
 At an apartment complex in Provo when I worked for the scrapbook company. I thought he should come to church more so I made it a point to invite him.  We would always visit and chat at ward things.  Never once went on a date. I don't even know if we thought about it. I don't know how to put it less harshly...I just was not into him.

-Where is he from?
  Newport News, Virginia.  Right near the Chesapeake Bay!

-Where did he serve his mission? 
Last Vegas!

- What does he do? 
He works at Lowe's...Improving Home Improvement
....wait that's Home Depot. I actually don't know their catch phrase.  So yeah he works at Lowe's and goes to UVU studying Technology Management.

-Does he have a good sense of directions?
No but he thinks he does.

- Why does he have facial hair?
Because I think it's handsome.

- When was he taught by the missionaries?
In '98 when he and his brother moved to Provo.  He was quite the wild child before that. I sort of like that about him, since I've never done one wild thing in my life.

-When was the last time he had a Christmas tree?
Like five years a go. This blows my mind.

And the one you are all dying to know?
-How serious is it?
He reads Harry Potter with me because I like it. I go to the library with him on Saturdays to help him with his homework. I'd say that's pretty serious.  I wish I had more specifics but you know me. I'm never very good at that sort of stuff.  Mostly I just like being an us rather than a me.

So there you go. You're Welcome!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Jeannette Walls....

I love to read. This summer I've soaked up a lot- its been quantity over quality. Until my mom brought me these home- she's been raving about them for awhile.  I've thought and thought about these two books.  I've wanted to change things about the characters. I've wanted to change  the way I think of people. The stories impacted me.

Quick reads that I'm still thinking about a month later. Perhaps you could get your mom to go to the library and get them for you too. Ha!

P.S. Read The Glass Castle first. Even if you're not supposed to.

Monday, August 1, 2011

One More from Vegas.....

All constructed with flowers.
Insane in the brain.

August is Here......

I've always been a fan of August.  I love the garden vegetables getting ripe. I love the preparation for school and I love the thought of new seasons around the corner.  This summer has been pretty blissful.  But it's always nice to know you will  be back to the grind. There is something about routine that makes me happy.   Speaking of happy- watching this guy ride a horse bareback for the first time in front of the whole family was pretty great.  What a trooper.

The neph Jade- show off.